Curhat.

HEY THERE READERS~ It's quite surprising that I managed to make an update in such a short time, but suddenly I feel so... 'full' that I need to 'throw some away', so this is my way of 'throwing it away' :p

Sooooo sorry that I need to use Bahasa Indonesia in here because... yeah I have my own reasons. So sorry, readers >< But if you're REALLY curious, you can use Google Translate~

Yak, jadi... Tadi ada sesuatu yg bikin gw nyesek. Gw tidur di kuliah umum. FOR THE FIRST TIME. Yah secara teknis gw ga tidur di kuliahnya, tapi tidur di awal-awalnya. TAPI TETEP AJAAAA. Yak, itu pemicu kegalauan gw. Ada sesuatu yg terjadi, tapi gw ga bisa cerita disini.

"Lah terus mau lu apa sih?" Gw butuh tempat buat buang kegalauan T______T Maaf ya blog...

Sejujurnya gw lagi mumet banget. LTM deadline besok dan gw masih stuck di referensi. Gw ikut banyak banget oprec (pemira sama progressive doang sih dan sekarang nambah oprec nmgbc) dan gw sedikit kebingungan karena gw merasa malah jadi kura-kura, padahal tujuan gw kuliah kan pengen jadi kunang-kunang! *ga penting* Tugas numpuk gara-gara gw numpuk stress dan melampiaskannya dengan istirahat 2 minggu. Salah gw juga sih...

Selain itu, gw jg galau gara-gara 'dia'. Ya, 'dia' yang bikin gw galau akhir-akhir ini. 'Dia' yang jadi alasan kenapa blog ini judulnya 'Of Medical Books and Love Notes'. 'Dia' yang bikin gw kehilangan ke-cool-an *walaupun aslinya ga ada coolnya sama sekali* tiap gw liat 'dia'. Walaupun gw yakin 'dia' ga bakal suka sama gw, tapi gw tetep kaya gini. DIAAAA *malah nyanyi*. Oke, itu salah. Lupakan saja yg tadi, itu ga jelas banget =____=

Gw kangen banget sama papa mama. Gw kangen banget sama rumah gw. Gw kangen masakan mama. Gw kangen masakan oma yg luar biasa enaknyooo. Gw kangen kasur gw. Gw kangen kamar gw. Gw kangen mbak gw. Gw kangen BALI. OMFG.

Blog, jujur gw ga tau gw harus gimana. Gw cuma bisa jalani. Gw berharap adanya 'dia' bisa jadi motivasi gw biar gw semangat belajar dan melupakan kegalauan gw, jangan malah nambah galau. Blog, cuma lo yg bisa gw ceritain... *dramatis*

oke, itu tadi kesannya ga banget, tapi... ya begitulah. Bukan karakter gw ya galau gini? Tapi I'm not gonna deny that it has been a part of me now. Yak lanjut dengan LTM, angket, dan research gw. Bye~ :*

Happy Swift Day!

Hey, it's November 13! Happy Swift Day to everyone especially fella swifties :D

anyway, be prepared because the quotes you're going to read could blow your mind. Enjoy~

"Cause I love the gap between your teeth, and I love the riddles that you speak." - Taylor Swift - Ours

"When you love someone, you love all of them... You gotta love everything about them, not just the good things but the bad things too. The things that you find lovable and the things you don't." - Valentine's Day

"The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name, it's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change." - Taylor Swift - Hey Stephen

"The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love? I wonder 'til I'm wide awake." - Taylor Swift - Enchanted

"So lay here beside me, just hold me and don't let go. This feeling I'm feeling is something I've never known." - Lady Antebellum - Can't Take My Eyes Off You

....mind. blown.

That Throbbing Feeling

Ummmmm- this is awkward. Recently I've been feeling that 'strange feeling' again. Everytime I saw 'him' my heart raced like crazy. I bet my face was beet red because I could feel the blood running to my cheeks. I couldn't control my body so I smiled to myself. My usual cheerfulness and courage turned into this weird bashful and silent personality of me- SILENT? MANDA? That is sooooooo wrong. I know that -_____-"

It's weird how meeting a single person could change myself that much. I started hoping to see him everyday though I couldn't do anything but to watch him from a distance. What is this thing I feel? Is it love? I'm not sure, because... There's this hollow feeling inside my chest. I don't know what that means. I have felt... 3 or 4 unrequited loves (?) in my life and this time it feels... different. Wait, I don't even know if it's different or not because I haven't had that 'feeling' for 2 years or so.

Yeah, my high school life is so much fun without that love-thing. I could enjoy having fun with my beloved classmates and friends. I miss them so damn much!

Wait- look what I just made! Random pic timeeee~ :)

Reaaaaally random. Took this around 10 seconds ago. You can see how messy my room is today, hahahah. I have a debate competition this Saturday and I haven't done anything that could significantly improve me or my speech or anything related to my debating skills! Someone helppppp >< Yet idk why but me and my friends are quite optimistic. We won't ask for victory, we just don't want to embarrass ourselves in public. Though it would certainly have felt nice to win when you know that you're just an underdog or a newbie in that competition. Well, let's just hope~

Cheers~

sick ;______;

Hello world~ I have good news and bad news. Bad news first, I'm sick ;______; I have this stupid cold and exam's starting in 2 weeks. Hell. Runny nose, headache, fever, yeah things like that. It's like I can feel all the germs covering my body. At times like this I miss home so much. I wish I can go home, sleep with my parents beside me, have a nice warm porridge for breakfast and sweets anytime I like. I miss my bed and blanket back at home. No, I'm not homesick! I'm just a little bit tired, that's all! /denial

Anyway, 11.11.11 is getting closer! "What's up with 11.11.11 anyway?" Ckckckck, It's my dad's birthday!!!! Someone, pleaseeeee take me homeeeee. I wanna see my family so baaaaad. Daddyyyyyyyyyy~ ;__________; OKAY I ADMIT, I MISS HOME SO DAMN MUCH

... Well the good news is I finally got lots and lots of medical e-books~ YAY~ Thanks to Eiko, Edwin, Risma, and Arvin! You guys rock! Transferring them to Annabelle (my iPad). Yes, I name my stuff, but ain't gonna tell you all their names because... idk lol. I still haven't read any of them because... They're still too hard for me to understand! still, thank you guys for the e-books~

Mixed Feelings

Hello again!

Manda is back and alive! Not sure how though, haha. Well, readers there's something I need to tell you about. I CAN'T GET THIS SONG OUT OF MY HEAD. It's Taylor Swift's song, Ours. I've been humming this song all day long! Can you imagine?

"So don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

And life makes love look hard

The stakes are high

The waters rough

But this love is ours."

Darn it! Get it out of my head!!!!! Taylor, you're such an awesome song writer, your song has distracted me from finishing my homework :')

Eh- A report about love? Come on, I'm depressed enough. Don't remind me about that! He's just too... far away. Karma? Perhaps, for loving 2 person at the same time. Sadly, when my heart chose him, he slipped away from my hands. Besides, I don't think that I'm his type and he might already have someone else in his heart. Damn tears, why won't you go away? Shoo! Leave me and my homework alone, please... Should I look away and start loving someone who's willing to give me his heart? Perhaps, but I don't know if I'm strong enough to step backwards.

"Backwards? Manda, you haven't even made any move!" Well that's true. I can only look at him from a distance. He made my heart pound so heart like my ribcage is going to break anytime soon. Why, why do you have to be so faraway? Why do you have to be so unreachable? Why can't you love me like I love you? ...lebay? I know. Teen hormones, get used to it :p

Oh hey look! Yesterday when I was attending a really boring lecture, I drew a little bit. Here's the result!

Not really good, just something really random but I've been attracted to dolls recently, especially teddy bears and cookie monster. God, they're just AWESOME, but nothing beats Doraemon :p

Enough with the randomness- what?! It's not enough? Seems like you just have to wait until my next post. Cheers <3

Of Medical Books and Love Notes

Alohaaa~ Long time no see mates~ Sorry for the lack of updates I was busy [s]lazy[/s] so... yeah -_____-"

LOOK! I'M NOT IN HIGH SCHOOL ANYMORE. I AM...

MAHASISWA

Well, that is Indonesian for university students. Proud? HELL YEAH I AM! Can't believe that I got accepted in my dream university, the University of Indonesia in the faculty of medicine. So technically I'm on my way to becoming a (7 stars) doctor in the future.

"Tapi kakaaaaak, 7 stars doctor itu apa?" Ain't gonna describe it here, just go Google it, hahahah. <--- ish too lazy to type. Sorry ><"

Well, to be honest life in the faculty of medicine is not as easy as I thought it would be though I'm only in my first year. When I interviewed my seniors (don't ask me why :p) they told me that the first year in the faculty of medicine is the easiest one of all. EASY? EASY??? IS THIS REALLY WHAT YOU CALL EASY???? I can't imagine how my life would be next year, and the year after that, and the year after that.............. /dies

"Wait- you told(?) me that you lived in Bali, yet you're studying in University of Indonesia which is located in Java, how did you do that?" FYI, I have evolved into...

ANAK KOSAN

That is Indonesian for students who lived in dorms or rented rooms or such things, and I am one of them right now. Home sick? No doubt about it. I miss home *almost* every single day here. Sometimes I cried, sometimes I don't :p I miss mom, dad, my room, my grandma, pretty much... EVERYTHING, but I put them aside and fight everyday! One day I'll become the MINISTER OF HEALTH in Indonesia (Yak, anda tidak salah baca. MENTERI KESEHATAN, saudara-saudara.) I'll erase malnutrition in children forever in this country one day- or at least reduce the number of it. I won't let all my efforts wasted. Please support me everyone because I'll do my best and I am willing to dedicate my life for the sake of this country of ours.

Aside from that, being fifteen doesn't make my life easier in university. Do you know this thing called galau? It's Indonesian for sorrowful, miserable, lonely, desperate, and similar things. Puberty and galau works together like a charm, yeah a charm that makes it harder for you to concentrate. I mean since when do I have to think about L.O.V.E.?! Well, it's not my first time falling in love yet it feels like my first time. Weird, I know. Kill me- waiiiiiiit. I'm not going emo. Don't kill me! BUUUUUUUT- ain't gonna let that love-thing ruin my medical studies. My priority is 1. Food 2. Family 3. Study 4.Friends 5. love. There, happy? Yes I am :)

Therefore, I'm gonna change the title of my blog to....

Of Medical Books and Love Notes

Nothing much is gonna change, but now that my world revolves around these things so.... yeah. Enjoy, folks! :)

#np Hey Stephen - Taylor Swift

Quote of the day: "You don't need a reason to love someone."

4 Days of Happiness :]

FINALLY, AFTER SUCH A LONG BUSY TERM OF STUDYING,

i give myself a Vacation~! Umm-Actually, my parents are gone for a business trip so, i have to follow them. So, there i was. Stuck in Jakarta and Bandung for 4 days :]

1st Day

Wednesday, 24th March 2010

I arrived in Jakarta in the evening *about 10p.m. blame the delayed plane !

Just as glutton as i can be, i tried to find something to eat. I was soooo~ hungry that time. i only ate like about 5 spoonful of fried rice at 6pm, and i'm starving . *don't say that i'm gaining weight! my mom decided that we should eat some kwetiaw-well, you know. a kind of noodle made from rice but it's flat and wider- in Kelapa Gading area because it's the closest one to our apartment. I ordered the fried one. It was PERFECT! it has shrimps *not ed*, *you-know-what-meat, veggies, and fried *you-know-what-meat*. The sauce tastes great. Sadly, i haven't got the chance to take a picture of it because my cellphone's dead

-thenigohomeandsleep

2nd Day,

Thursday, 25th March 2010

Woo-hoo, i went to Mal Artha Gading with my family. It was ordinary, and i didn't really find anything interesting except-BOYS TOYS FAIR ! UGYAAA~

i found a bandai stand and saw lots of cute action figures. LOOK! IT'S SABER! -sorry, no photo again ; _ ;

the discount was great! i bought a set of pokemon action

figure for IDR85000 + 70% discount x)

*okay, no pic from me, but i got the pic from google image

Haha, cute, isn't it?

I also manage to find myself a doraemon headset. kyaa~

in a store at Bandung Indah Plaza (BIP) i also saw it, but it was expensive ! IDR125000! i bought it in Artha Gading for about IDR65000! So it was such a great deal !

In the afternoon, i went to Mal Kelapa Gading and watch Hachiko : A Dog's Story at XXI . I almost cried during the movie. It was touching

It's a touching story about a faithful dog named Hachiko. Wanna know more? Watch it! It's starred by Richard Gere!

-Andirestafterwards

3rd Day, Friday, 26th March 2010

i went to BANDUNG with my father with only a backpack

as you can see, i went overboard in shopping. After all my dad said to me:

"You're already 14, why are you still wearing t-shirt and jeans?"

"What's wrong with it? It's comfy"

"No buts, you're a teenager now. You have to dress like a typical girl of your age!"

"..."

And that's why i bought sooo many feminine clothers -e.g. dresses, girls t-shirts, long sleeves, and so. but no skirt !

I spent like IDR1000.000 that day. Hey! That included my dad's! i'm not a shop-a-holic

4th Day, Saturday, 27th March 2010

WOOOOW, I WENT TO ITB ! KYAAA~ IT WAS HUGE AND AWESOME ! WHO DOESN'T WANT TO ATTEND IT?!

well, in the afternoon i asked my dad to take me to depok. my dad agreed and we went to depok by bus. i slept on the whole journey and my neck ached like hell.

in depok, as you all predicted, I WENT TO UI - UNIVERSITAS INDONESIA. IT WAS HUGE ! though i have to go to Salemba again to see it's medical faculty, it was worth it. The campus area was beautiful ! XD

At night i watch Alice in Wonderland with my father at blitz. Yes, it was a great movie .

And, 5th Day, Sunday, 28th March 2010

i went back to Bali. such a shame. it was only 4 days . but i hope one day i can have another holiday