MY FIRST 'REAL' EXAM OMGOMGOMG

yes, O.M.G. I just had my first 'real' exam in uni. Well, shouldn't really say much about that because... You know the reasons, right? :')

Drinking milk again and ish feeling dizzy so excuse me for the randomness. I always feel sleepy after drinking milk. I can sleep for hours after drinking milk. Now I understands why babies sleep so much...

Wait or is it because I'm on my growth spurt? Am I getting taller? YAAAAY FINALLY I really want to get taller. I'm only 160cm now so I need to gain 10 more cm to... satisfy myself? Yeah I think so. Well, shall update more after I finished my exams <3

*sigh*

hey thereeee no cheers from me though, so sorry :(

I have exams coming up and I haven't studied anything. yes, ANYTHING. Well I'll just take it easy. I'm currently obsessed with Starry Sky and Fullmetal Alchemist so yeah you can imagine how I 'study' everyday :')

I LOVE Ryunosuke Miyaji. He's like my... type of guy <3 He's a kyudo athlete, he's tall, he's B.L.O.N.D.E. <3 <3 <3 and he's so cool yet caring. Ugh I just can't resist those cold guys. So cold yet so warm and fluffy *snuggles*

.... Someone, shoot me please.

*shot*

That's better~ I'm a little bit stressed from so many things to learn. So little time, so much to do, so so... SOOOOOOOOOOOO.... *dies*

Anyway can anybody teach me how to play guitar and piano and violin and cello? I love them so much *random*

Sincerely,

The girl who doesn't even know what love is because all that she had felt turned out to be not love-ish. Sorry Mr. K :)

December already?

I love December! Christmas is coming reaaaaal soon, and NEW YEAR'S EVE!

#decemberwishes everything okay, especially my family and my grades :')

Though I usually listen to songs that represents my mood or my current situation, I'm not listening to Back to December right now. Weird. Why? Maybe it doesn't really suit my mood or anything, but if I had to listen to that song, I'd change the title into 'Back to August'. Why is that? Hahaha, it was fun back then, but not anymore, thanks for everything though 07.08.10 :))

short post <3

100th Post dedicated to beloved ones :)

100th POST~!

wow, simply... WOW! After a few years of blogging, I finally reached my 100th post, omgomgomg soooo excited :))

Well, because it is a special post, I'll dedicate this special moment to my beloved ones :)

Ida Sang Hyang Widhi Wasa

(My Guardian)

Putu Gde Maosadhi Yoga & Lierty

(My #1 Priority) I love you, and I miss you sooo much :(

My Granny

(also My #1 Priority) me misses you soooo :(

C-class, A5G, A9G, FKUI 2011

(always in my heart :))

ME LOVES YOU ALL <3 <3 <3

btw, outbound is over, loving my uni even more~ :D

Ain't Gonna Fall Deeper

HOHOHOHOHOHO ini cuma postingan singkat aja tentang betapa senangnya gw hari ini~

kenapa?

Simple,

I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM ANYMORE~

Read that folks? In your face idiot~ I just realized that I love my camera more than you. My camera is my treasure, and you're just nothing to me hahaha.

Why do I post this random thing? Actually I'm stressed out. I have 3 upcoming exams and I haven't studied, at all. So yeah, I'm stress, woohoo~

Wish me luck for my upcoming tests ><"

Wild Hamsters?

Yesterday, I was having random thoughts about this world. I started with one basic question, how do wild hamsters live? I mean hamsters are domesticated animals, but what about wild hamsters? I thought, and thought, and thought for hours and in the end suddenly I have another question in my mind,

"Why love someone when you know that it'll be unrequited after all?" I almost laughed. The question really hit 'that' spot in my heart. Unrequited love is like sprinkling salt at a wound, it hurts, but somehow I have this ecstatic feeling whenever I fall in love. To be honest, I have experienced lots and lots of unrequited love. None of the person I loved returned my feelings- Wait, there's one, but in the end I rejected him. I regretted it a bit though, but now there's nothing between us anymore :p

I love the exciting feeling when I waited for him to appear and saw him at unexpected time. I love it when I accidentally dreamt about him. I love waiting for him to say hi to me.

To me love is when you feel the urge to protect someone, to get close to someone, to take care of someone, and to be happy by just being around someone. It's beautiful, to me it's one of God's masterpiece :) Though I could never approach him properly or say that 'l' word towards him, I'm still content with what I have at that state. Love is weird, I know, but it's still magical and wonderful :)

Anyway, I'm craving cheesecake, cupcake, spam-musubi, choco-banana pocky, and melon. Damn, I'm getting fat :x

Curhat.

HEY THERE READERS~ It's quite surprising that I managed to make an update in such a short time, but suddenly I feel so... 'full' that I need to 'throw some away', so this is my way of 'throwing it away' :p

Sooooo sorry that I need to use Bahasa Indonesia in here because... yeah I have my own reasons. So sorry, readers >< But if you're REALLY curious, you can use Google Translate~

Yak, jadi... Tadi ada sesuatu yg bikin gw nyesek. Gw tidur di kuliah umum. FOR THE FIRST TIME. Yah secara teknis gw ga tidur di kuliahnya, tapi tidur di awal-awalnya. TAPI TETEP AJAAAA. Yak, itu pemicu kegalauan gw. Ada sesuatu yg terjadi, tapi gw ga bisa cerita disini.

"Lah terus mau lu apa sih?" Gw butuh tempat buat buang kegalauan T______T Maaf ya blog...

Sejujurnya gw lagi mumet banget. LTM deadline besok dan gw masih stuck di referensi. Gw ikut banyak banget oprec (pemira sama progressive doang sih dan sekarang nambah oprec nmgbc) dan gw sedikit kebingungan karena gw merasa malah jadi kura-kura, padahal tujuan gw kuliah kan pengen jadi kunang-kunang! *ga penting* Tugas numpuk gara-gara gw numpuk stress dan melampiaskannya dengan istirahat 2 minggu. Salah gw juga sih...

Selain itu, gw jg galau gara-gara 'dia'. Ya, 'dia' yang bikin gw galau akhir-akhir ini. 'Dia' yang jadi alasan kenapa blog ini judulnya 'Of Medical Books and Love Notes'. 'Dia' yang bikin gw kehilangan ke-cool-an *walaupun aslinya ga ada coolnya sama sekali* tiap gw liat 'dia'. Walaupun gw yakin 'dia' ga bakal suka sama gw, tapi gw tetep kaya gini. DIAAAA *malah nyanyi*. Oke, itu salah. Lupakan saja yg tadi, itu ga jelas banget =____=

Gw kangen banget sama papa mama. Gw kangen banget sama rumah gw. Gw kangen masakan mama. Gw kangen masakan oma yg luar biasa enaknyooo. Gw kangen kasur gw. Gw kangen kamar gw. Gw kangen mbak gw. Gw kangen BALI. OMFG.

Blog, jujur gw ga tau gw harus gimana. Gw cuma bisa jalani. Gw berharap adanya 'dia' bisa jadi motivasi gw biar gw semangat belajar dan melupakan kegalauan gw, jangan malah nambah galau. Blog, cuma lo yg bisa gw ceritain... *dramatis*

oke, itu tadi kesannya ga banget, tapi... ya begitulah. Bukan karakter gw ya galau gini? Tapi I'm not gonna deny that it has been a part of me now. Yak lanjut dengan LTM, angket, dan research gw. Bye~ :*

Happy Swift Day!

Hey, it's November 13! Happy Swift Day to everyone especially fella swifties :D

anyway, be prepared because the quotes you're going to read could blow your mind. Enjoy~

"Cause I love the gap between your teeth, and I love the riddles that you speak." - Taylor Swift - Ours

"When you love someone, you love all of them... You gotta love everything about them, not just the good things but the bad things too. The things that you find lovable and the things you don't." - Valentine's Day

"The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name, it's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change." - Taylor Swift - Hey Stephen

"The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love? I wonder 'til I'm wide awake." - Taylor Swift - Enchanted

"So lay here beside me, just hold me and don't let go. This feeling I'm feeling is something I've never known." - Lady Antebellum - Can't Take My Eyes Off You

....mind. blown.

That Throbbing Feeling

Ummmmm- this is awkward. Recently I've been feeling that 'strange feeling' again. Everytime I saw 'him' my heart raced like crazy. I bet my face was beet red because I could feel the blood running to my cheeks. I couldn't control my body so I smiled to myself. My usual cheerfulness and courage turned into this weird bashful and silent personality of me- SILENT? MANDA? That is sooooooo wrong. I know that -_____-"

It's weird how meeting a single person could change myself that much. I started hoping to see him everyday though I couldn't do anything but to watch him from a distance. What is this thing I feel? Is it love? I'm not sure, because... There's this hollow feeling inside my chest. I don't know what that means. I have felt... 3 or 4 unrequited loves (?) in my life and this time it feels... different. Wait, I don't even know if it's different or not because I haven't had that 'feeling' for 2 years or so.

Yeah, my high school life is so much fun without that love-thing. I could enjoy having fun with my beloved classmates and friends. I miss them so damn much!

Wait- look what I just made! Random pic timeeee~ :)

Reaaaaally random. Took this around 10 seconds ago. You can see how messy my room is today, hahahah. I have a debate competition this Saturday and I haven't done anything that could significantly improve me or my speech or anything related to my debating skills! Someone helppppp >< Yet idk why but me and my friends are quite optimistic. We won't ask for victory, we just don't want to embarrass ourselves in public. Though it would certainly have felt nice to win when you know that you're just an underdog or a newbie in that competition. Well, let's just hope~

Cheers~

sick ;______;

Hello world~ I have good news and bad news. Bad news first, I'm sick ;______; I have this stupid cold and exam's starting in 2 weeks. Hell. Runny nose, headache, fever, yeah things like that. It's like I can feel all the germs covering my body. At times like this I miss home so much. I wish I can go home, sleep with my parents beside me, have a nice warm porridge for breakfast and sweets anytime I like. I miss my bed and blanket back at home. No, I'm not homesick! I'm just a little bit tired, that's all! /denial

Anyway, 11.11.11 is getting closer! "What's up with 11.11.11 anyway?" Ckckckck, It's my dad's birthday!!!! Someone, pleaseeeee take me homeeeee. I wanna see my family so baaaaad. Daddyyyyyyyyyy~ ;__________; OKAY I ADMIT, I MISS HOME SO DAMN MUCH

... Well the good news is I finally got lots and lots of medical e-books~ YAY~ Thanks to Eiko, Edwin, Risma, and Arvin! You guys rock! Transferring them to Annabelle (my iPad). Yes, I name my stuff, but ain't gonna tell you all their names because... idk lol. I still haven't read any of them because... They're still too hard for me to understand! still, thank you guys for the e-books~

Mixed Feelings

Hello again!

Manda is back and alive! Not sure how though, haha. Well, readers there's something I need to tell you about. I CAN'T GET THIS SONG OUT OF MY HEAD. It's Taylor Swift's song, Ours. I've been humming this song all day long! Can you imagine?

"So don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

And life makes love look hard

The stakes are high

The waters rough

But this love is ours."

Darn it! Get it out of my head!!!!! Taylor, you're such an awesome song writer, your song has distracted me from finishing my homework :')

Eh- A report about love? Come on, I'm depressed enough. Don't remind me about that! He's just too... far away. Karma? Perhaps, for loving 2 person at the same time. Sadly, when my heart chose him, he slipped away from my hands. Besides, I don't think that I'm his type and he might already have someone else in his heart. Damn tears, why won't you go away? Shoo! Leave me and my homework alone, please... Should I look away and start loving someone who's willing to give me his heart? Perhaps, but I don't know if I'm strong enough to step backwards.

"Backwards? Manda, you haven't even made any move!" Well that's true. I can only look at him from a distance. He made my heart pound so heart like my ribcage is going to break anytime soon. Why, why do you have to be so faraway? Why do you have to be so unreachable? Why can't you love me like I love you? ...lebay? I know. Teen hormones, get used to it :p

Oh hey look! Yesterday when I was attending a really boring lecture, I drew a little bit. Here's the result!

Not really good, just something really random but I've been attracted to dolls recently, especially teddy bears and cookie monster. God, they're just AWESOME, but nothing beats Doraemon :p

Enough with the randomness- what?! It's not enough? Seems like you just have to wait until my next post. Cheers <3

Of Medical Books and Love Notes

Alohaaa~ Long time no see mates~ Sorry for the lack of updates I was busy [s]lazy[/s] so... yeah -_____-"

LOOK! I'M NOT IN HIGH SCHOOL ANYMORE. I AM...

MAHASISWA

Well, that is Indonesian for university students. Proud? HELL YEAH I AM! Can't believe that I got accepted in my dream university, the University of Indonesia in the faculty of medicine. So technically I'm on my way to becoming a (7 stars) doctor in the future.

"Tapi kakaaaaak, 7 stars doctor itu apa?" Ain't gonna describe it here, just go Google it, hahahah. <--- ish too lazy to type. Sorry ><"

Well, to be honest life in the faculty of medicine is not as easy as I thought it would be though I'm only in my first year. When I interviewed my seniors (don't ask me why :p) they told me that the first year in the faculty of medicine is the easiest one of all. EASY? EASY??? IS THIS REALLY WHAT YOU CALL EASY???? I can't imagine how my life would be next year, and the year after that, and the year after that.............. /dies

"Wait- you told(?) me that you lived in Bali, yet you're studying in University of Indonesia which is located in Java, how did you do that?" FYI, I have evolved into...

ANAK KOSAN

That is Indonesian for students who lived in dorms or rented rooms or such things, and I am one of them right now. Home sick? No doubt about it. I miss home *almost* every single day here. Sometimes I cried, sometimes I don't :p I miss mom, dad, my room, my grandma, pretty much... EVERYTHING, but I put them aside and fight everyday! One day I'll become the MINISTER OF HEALTH in Indonesia (Yak, anda tidak salah baca. MENTERI KESEHATAN, saudara-saudara.) I'll erase malnutrition in children forever in this country one day- or at least reduce the number of it. I won't let all my efforts wasted. Please support me everyone because I'll do my best and I am willing to dedicate my life for the sake of this country of ours.

Aside from that, being fifteen doesn't make my life easier in university. Do you know this thing called galau? It's Indonesian for sorrowful, miserable, lonely, desperate, and similar things. Puberty and galau works together like a charm, yeah a charm that makes it harder for you to concentrate. I mean since when do I have to think about L.O.V.E.?! Well, it's not my first time falling in love yet it feels like my first time. Weird, I know. Kill me- waiiiiiiit. I'm not going emo. Don't kill me! BUUUUUUUT- ain't gonna let that love-thing ruin my medical studies. My priority is 1. Food 2. Family 3. Study 4.Friends 5. love. There, happy? Yes I am :)

Therefore, I'm gonna change the title of my blog to....

Of Medical Books and Love Notes

Nothing much is gonna change, but now that my world revolves around these things so.... yeah. Enjoy, folks! :)

#np Hey Stephen - Taylor Swift

Quote of the day: "You don't need a reason to love someone."